Ashley sat quietly on the stairs of the courthouse, waiting for her father to finish his tenth Marlboro cigarette in an hour. While timidly biting her nails and twirling her hair she thought “Just how nervous could he be? I’m the one out of my element here.” The smoke lingered through the air like an exquisite irresistible perfume and she wanted a drag so bad that her mouth began to water just thinking about it, but her lips remained silent to keep her habit safe from her father. Her father was a stringent man who enforced a strict no smoking rule, except for him of course, and she did not want to add anymore stress to a day whose monstrous conclusion she could not even imagine at this point. Nevertheless, the need for a calming nicotine hit totally tormented Ashley.
He took one last drag, stood confidently flicking his cigarette onto the sidewalk and then turned to enter the massive courthouse doors. While straightening his suit coat and meticulously checking his own appearance Ashley could feel his disapproving eyes staring directly at her with disgust and embarrassment. Before entering the building and his repulsion turned to anger he said, “Let’s go! Let’s go! I have other things to do today.” Then he opened the doors and gestured for her to follow him down the hall as if she was nothing more than a mindless dumb beast herded to the slaughter
Friday, December 3, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
book review
Jackie,
I finished the book...wow! You did a wonderful job. I''m really proud of you. Mom and Dad were talking about you this weekend and when you and Kim were on the swim team. They too think you wrote a great book (they both read it as well as Mark) Happy holidays to you and your family.
-Kristie Diaz
I finished the book...wow! You did a wonderful job. I''m really proud of you. Mom and Dad were talking about you this weekend and when you and Kim were on the swim team. They too think you wrote a great book (they both read it as well as Mark) Happy holidays to you and your family.
-Kristie Diaz
Sunday, November 28, 2010
article written on the book
Prominent Family, Cheerleader, A student... so how does it all go so wrong with this troubled young teen girl?
....After her mother dies, she becomes depressed and turns to drinking and drugs. Her father refuses to reach out to her in her time of need, instead involving the police and the court systems to rid himself of the burden. Ashley is arrested and sent to Hopeful Wilderness Camp for Girls for two years
This is a great book for parents to use in understanding the effect divorce has on teen girls. It offers in-site to hear from the teen girl whats really going on inside her mind. This book also draws out how certain parents and step parents are quick to abandon the not so easy to love sibling. Resentment, guilt, hate, parental manipulation, lies and the control of information about the teen girl to her siblings. They want her gone! Ostracised from other family members! Keep control or the lies will get out. This is a gut wrenching emotional story, a is must read for parents of teen girls
....After her mother dies, she becomes depressed and turns to drinking and drugs. Her father refuses to reach out to her in her time of need, instead involving the police and the court systems to rid himself of the burden. Ashley is arrested and sent to Hopeful Wilderness Camp for Girls for two years
This is a great book for parents to use in understanding the effect divorce has on teen girls. It offers in-site to hear from the teen girl whats really going on inside her mind. This book also draws out how certain parents and step parents are quick to abandon the not so easy to love sibling. Resentment, guilt, hate, parental manipulation, lies and the control of information about the teen girl to her siblings. They want her gone! Ostracised from other family members! Keep control or the lies will get out. This is a gut wrenching emotional story, a is must read for parents of teen girls
Saturday, November 27, 2010
review on the book
Jackie,
This is Mary, I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed the book, I received it yesterday and couldn't put it down, I finished it last night. I am so proud of you, you are a very strong women and don't let anyone tell you different.
Love, Mary Dickehut
This is Mary, I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed the book, I received it yesterday and couldn't put it down, I finished it last night. I am so proud of you, you are a very strong women and don't let anyone tell you different.
Love, Mary Dickehut
Monday, November 22, 2010
Local and National Investors Needed!!
Marketing Budget:
Looking for capital to buy & market my book "Daddy's Throw Away Girl" in volume for pre-arranged book signings locally and then Nationally. There is interest from a National Talk show and professional script writers. This book has been professionally edited, ISBN, Copy-write and Library of Congress approved and in my name. This book is in print and available. The publishers cost for printing by design is pricey; however if ordered in bulk through the Author, major discounts are applied.
These funds will be used to market parents of troubled teens, run away shelters, advocacy teen rehabilitation facilities, wilderness camps and state run organizations to include CASA.(Member, FT Bend County Texas) The book has excellent reviews (from all listed above) and is well received by the local media. I am not looking for a huge investment; the range would be between 10 -12k. Sales generated from the exposure will have repayment to the investor as priority i.e. repayment commensurate with sales. Our first book signing is scheduled for early Jan 2011 and local media will be present. I have just completed my second book as well.
Looking for capital to buy & market my book "Daddy's Throw Away Girl" in volume for pre-arranged book signings locally and then Nationally. There is interest from a National Talk show and professional script writers. This book has been professionally edited, ISBN, Copy-write and Library of Congress approved and in my name. This book is in print and available. The publishers cost for printing by design is pricey; however if ordered in bulk through the Author, major discounts are applied.
These funds will be used to market parents of troubled teens, run away shelters, advocacy teen rehabilitation facilities, wilderness camps and state run organizations to include CASA.(Member, FT Bend County Texas) The book has excellent reviews (from all listed above) and is well received by the local media. I am not looking for a huge investment; the range would be between 10 -12k. Sales generated from the exposure will have repayment to the investor as priority i.e. repayment commensurate with sales. Our first book signing is scheduled for early Jan 2011 and local media will be present. I have just completed my second book as well.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Book is in print!!!
Local Author, Jacqueline Carden, releases her first book entitled “Daddy’s Throw Away Girl!” This incredible story is about a teenage girl named Ashley Carter who became very depressed after the sudden death of her mother and she turned to drugs and alcohol to cope with her pain. After being forced to move back into her father’s home many problems arise and she is shipped off to an all girls wilderness camp for two grueling years. To learn more and follow the rest of “Ashley Carter’s journey click on the link to purchase the book!!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
“Child abuse builds a prison in the child's own heart and mind that often imprisons her for a lifetime. Jackie's story should be required reading for every teen girl in America, and every single one of their would-be "counselors" and friends.
-Kenneth Bean, author of Teach Your Kids Bean’s About Baseball
-Kenneth Bean, author of Teach Your Kids Bean’s About Baseball
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Book is in print!!!
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone has been supportive of me through my book writing process. I am honored to have so many loving caring people in my life. I hope everyone who has purchased the book will enjoy it. Secondly, help me get the word out about the importance of loving and caring for your children in the way a loving parent should. Every child goes through ups and downs, some more severely than others, but children and teenagers have the right to be safe and loved. So when your child is driving you crazy and you think there is nowhere to turn, hug them and pray for strength!!!!!!
Thank you again for all your support!!! Keep checking for new info on my blog!! I will have a book signing schedule shortly. For those who order online it is a better savings for you and I will autograph your copy whenever asked. Happy Reading!!
-Jacqueline Carden
Thank you again for all your support!!! Keep checking for new info on my blog!! I will have a book signing schedule shortly. For those who order online it is a better savings for you and I will autograph your copy whenever asked. Happy Reading!!
-Jacqueline Carden
Monday, November 15, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
The Book Release "Daddy's Throw Away girl"
Fifteen-year-old Ashley Carter has been betrayed by those closest to her. After her mother dies, she becomes depressed and turns to drinking and drugs. Her father refuses to reach out to her in her time of need, instead involving the police and the court systems to rid himself of the burden. Ashley is arrested and sent to Hopeful Wilderness Camp for Girls for two years. During her stay Ashley attempts to comprehend how a child can be thrown away by those who are supposed to love her the most. Follow Ashley's journey as she fights against the odds, discovers dark family secrets and grows up to be a courageous and assertive adult and mother. Will she make her father pay for the lies he told? Will she finally find the love and acceptance she searches for?
This is a must read for Parents and Teen Girls.
The subjects covered are as follows:
Troubled girls, summer camps, bootcamps, troubled teens, troubled youths, troubled teenagers, military schools for girls, summer camps for girls, boarding schools for girls, disrespectful girls, disobedient girls, juvenile court rules in TX.
This New Book is a great source for the following:
Parent Help, Help for Parents, Parenting Troubled Teens
Teen Self improvement,troubled teen, boarding school for troubled teen, schools for troubled teen, help for troubled teen, troubled teen program, camp for troubled teen, boot camp for troubled teen,home for troubled teen.
This is a must read for Parents and Teen Girls.
The subjects covered are as follows:
Troubled girls, summer camps, bootcamps, troubled teens, troubled youths, troubled teenagers, military schools for girls, summer camps for girls, boarding schools for girls, disrespectful girls, disobedient girls, juvenile court rules in TX.
This New Book is a great source for the following:
Parent Help, Help for Parents, Parenting Troubled Teens
Teen Self improvement,troubled teen, boarding school for troubled teen, schools for troubled teen, help for troubled teen, troubled teen program, camp for troubled teen, boot camp for troubled teen,home for troubled teen.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Book Cover
"Daddy's Throw Away Girl"
This book deals with Problem Teen Girls and will be marketed in Texas, Ohio, Arkansas, New Mexico, Utah, Arizona, Massachusetts, New Jersey, Maryland, Washington, Rancho Santa Fe, California, Connecticut, Delaware, Virginia, Colorado, New York, Minnesota, New Hampshire, Texas, Rhode Island, Illinois, Oregon, Georgia, Michigan, Vermont, Pennsylvania, Florida, Idaho. It is great content and reading material for Struggling Teens, Troubled Kids, Troubled Teen Girls.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Poem of the DAY
Lost
It’s 4 o’clock in the morning and I cannot sleep,
He is lying next to me not making a peep.
I think I am sober but I am not really sure,
I snorted a lot of cocaine tonight and it was really pure.
My thoughts are dazed and my emotions confused,
Torn between what I should and should not do.
I am completely broke and I have no job,
But I have managed to hide my feelings and silence my sobs.
I am not much of a crier until I hit my lowest of low,
And I either break down or cry or I’ll just go and buy some more blow.
I don’t really like being wired out of my mind,
But I can’t refuse when cocaine is the drug we find.
I want so much to escape this clouded place,
To try and live a life where I can stand to look at my own face.
I feel so alone and lost most of the time,
I want my life back, something I can happily call mine.
by: Jacqueline Carden (96')
It’s 4 o’clock in the morning and I cannot sleep,
He is lying next to me not making a peep.
I think I am sober but I am not really sure,
I snorted a lot of cocaine tonight and it was really pure.
My thoughts are dazed and my emotions confused,
Torn between what I should and should not do.
I am completely broke and I have no job,
But I have managed to hide my feelings and silence my sobs.
I am not much of a crier until I hit my lowest of low,
And I either break down or cry or I’ll just go and buy some more blow.
I don’t really like being wired out of my mind,
But I can’t refuse when cocaine is the drug we find.
I want so much to escape this clouded place,
To try and live a life where I can stand to look at my own face.
I feel so alone and lost most of the time,
I want my life back, something I can happily call mine.
by: Jacqueline Carden (96')
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Poem of the Day
Prayer for Help
Despite my rage, I am trying to maintain composure,
Even though my entire life is open for exposure.
Maybe it is time to face my fears,
No more hiding like I have done for the past eighteen years.
I used to be a fighter and always stood strong,
But after so much time my life’s purpose seemed wrong.
I can’t depend on my parent’s to love or support me,
Only one person can do that and I speak to him while on my knees.
I beg him for help to stop the raging anger within me and all the gloom,
To set my soul and mind at ease like a baby in its mother’s womb.
I know HE will help if I could just say the words and ask,
But the words need to be sincere and spoken from the heart and HE will complete the task.
by: Jacqueline Carden
Despite my rage, I am trying to maintain composure,
Even though my entire life is open for exposure.
Maybe it is time to face my fears,
No more hiding like I have done for the past eighteen years.
I used to be a fighter and always stood strong,
But after so much time my life’s purpose seemed wrong.
I can’t depend on my parent’s to love or support me,
Only one person can do that and I speak to him while on my knees.
I beg him for help to stop the raging anger within me and all the gloom,
To set my soul and mind at ease like a baby in its mother’s womb.
I know HE will help if I could just say the words and ask,
But the words need to be sincere and spoken from the heart and HE will complete the task.
by: Jacqueline Carden
Friday, February 12, 2010
Quote about love
"Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end."
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Quote for the Day
It is not enough to have a good mind; the main thing is to use it well.
Rene Descartes
Rene Descartes
Sunday, February 7, 2010
The Journey
The clock struck one ad the fog covered the sky for miles and would not retreat,
It rolled through the air starting at the sky line and ending down on the street,
It was cold and damp but he did not care,
He waited for the right moment to make his move and enter the house if he dared,
The house where the screaming and anger was loudly heard but suddenly the lights went dim,
The strange sensation of death was felt as the fog rolled in.
Quiet as a mouse he floated into the house right through the front door,
It seemed as if he was levitating above the floor.
His flowing black gown resembled darkness and death,
Inhaling and exhaling loudly with every breath.
He entered the living room where he found the “victim” lying across a chair,
Soaked with blood and no longer able to take in air.
She wore nothing but a gown worn for bed,
Not knowing her life would end that night by the man she once loved and chose to wed.
Earlier that evening her husband had come home smelling of an unfamiliar perfume and gin and tonic,
Denying any wrong doing, yet the whole thing was ironic.
She asked many questions and the accusations he denied,
She became furious and upset the more he lied.
His anger took over and he threw her against the stair well,
Her body hit so hard against the wood and her head began to swell.
The fight finally ended with the crash of the glass frame,
Across her head and taking her life, things would never be the same.
Her husband was so full of rage and unsure of what to do or who to tell,
So he grabbed his car keys and left his house of hell.
But HE was still there in that house to take her away,
To bring her soul to GOD and start a new day.
His suit wasn’t black after all, it was clean and glowing white,
He wasn’t scary either as he crept into her house in the middle of the night.
Wrapping his arms around the woman and lifting her up into the fog of unknown,
Leaving her battered life on earth and beginning a new one with the man on the throne.
GOD was his name and he welcomed her with open arms and hands,
Never judging just loving and accepting her into his Eternal Land.
written by: Jacqueline Carden (copyright 08)
The clock struck one ad the fog covered the sky for miles and would not retreat,
It rolled through the air starting at the sky line and ending down on the street,
It was cold and damp but he did not care,
He waited for the right moment to make his move and enter the house if he dared,
The house where the screaming and anger was loudly heard but suddenly the lights went dim,
The strange sensation of death was felt as the fog rolled in.
Quiet as a mouse he floated into the house right through the front door,
It seemed as if he was levitating above the floor.
His flowing black gown resembled darkness and death,
Inhaling and exhaling loudly with every breath.
He entered the living room where he found the “victim” lying across a chair,
Soaked with blood and no longer able to take in air.
She wore nothing but a gown worn for bed,
Not knowing her life would end that night by the man she once loved and chose to wed.
Earlier that evening her husband had come home smelling of an unfamiliar perfume and gin and tonic,
Denying any wrong doing, yet the whole thing was ironic.
She asked many questions and the accusations he denied,
She became furious and upset the more he lied.
His anger took over and he threw her against the stair well,
Her body hit so hard against the wood and her head began to swell.
The fight finally ended with the crash of the glass frame,
Across her head and taking her life, things would never be the same.
Her husband was so full of rage and unsure of what to do or who to tell,
So he grabbed his car keys and left his house of hell.
But HE was still there in that house to take her away,
To bring her soul to GOD and start a new day.
His suit wasn’t black after all, it was clean and glowing white,
He wasn’t scary either as he crept into her house in the middle of the night.
Wrapping his arms around the woman and lifting her up into the fog of unknown,
Leaving her battered life on earth and beginning a new one with the man on the throne.
GOD was his name and he welcomed her with open arms and hands,
Never judging just loving and accepting her into his Eternal Land.
written by: Jacqueline Carden (copyright 08)
Poem of the day
A Runaway’s Prayer
My thoughts are blurred and my feelings confused,
I know what I have done in the past and I am sorry too.
I would love to go back to the way things used to be,
But that’s not reality and it’s time to open my eyes and really see.
The choice is up to me to change the way I live,
But my request for forgiveness must be sincere in order for HIM to forgive.
When I am out on the streets I don’t think of HIM much,
But I know deep down that I need his healing touch.
I call HIM GOD, this LORD of mine,
I do love and respect him some of the time.
But most times I don’t listen to him, I just block his words out,
Not realizing those times are when I need him the most without a doubt.
I know I have been selfish these past few years,
And his help is only asked for when I am down and in tears,
Or when I want or need something too,
But that isn’t right and I know I should start something new.
I want to feel like a Christian again and finally really believe,
And if HE will have me, then Jesus Christ I want to receive.
So I pray, “Lord please help me do the right thing!”
I want to put my faith in you again for you are my King.
The problems in my life have cut me like a knife,
But I trust that someday I will have Eternal Life.
All I have to do is believe in you,
And ask you into my heart honestly and true.
So I ask you dear God, “Will you come into my heart?
And never forsake me or ever from me would you part?”
“I love you God and from now on I always will!”
Even through all of life’s crazy unexpected ills.
I will close the subject with one final phrase,
“Thank you God for saving me! And please stay with me through life’s confusing and unexpected maze.”
written by: Jacqueline Carden
My thoughts are blurred and my feelings confused,
I know what I have done in the past and I am sorry too.
I would love to go back to the way things used to be,
But that’s not reality and it’s time to open my eyes and really see.
The choice is up to me to change the way I live,
But my request for forgiveness must be sincere in order for HIM to forgive.
When I am out on the streets I don’t think of HIM much,
But I know deep down that I need his healing touch.
I call HIM GOD, this LORD of mine,
I do love and respect him some of the time.
But most times I don’t listen to him, I just block his words out,
Not realizing those times are when I need him the most without a doubt.
I know I have been selfish these past few years,
And his help is only asked for when I am down and in tears,
Or when I want or need something too,
But that isn’t right and I know I should start something new.
I want to feel like a Christian again and finally really believe,
And if HE will have me, then Jesus Christ I want to receive.
So I pray, “Lord please help me do the right thing!”
I want to put my faith in you again for you are my King.
The problems in my life have cut me like a knife,
But I trust that someday I will have Eternal Life.
All I have to do is believe in you,
And ask you into my heart honestly and true.
So I ask you dear God, “Will you come into my heart?
And never forsake me or ever from me would you part?”
“I love you God and from now on I always will!”
Even through all of life’s crazy unexpected ills.
I will close the subject with one final phrase,
“Thank you God for saving me! And please stay with me through life’s confusing and unexpected maze.”
written by: Jacqueline Carden
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Poem of the day
Does the Truth Hurt More?
Thinking of the past and wondering what went wrong,
Remembering a child that used to be determined, happy, and strong,
Who is to blame if anyone at all,
Was it all her fault or did her family cause her to fall?
Or maybe it was her pride that slapped her in the face,
Or maybe her negative views on the human race.
It seems trivial to ponder on these thoughts but the question still remains,
Why is the world the way it is? Why does everyone endure pain?
So many questions left unanswered in this young girl’s mind,
Unclear lessons that are portrayed through daily dramatic mimes.
She wonders if it is worth the time to find the answers to heal,
Or have the answers already been secretly revealed?
Thinking of the past and wondering what went wrong,
Remembering a child that used to be determined, happy, and strong,
Who is to blame if anyone at all,
Was it all her fault or did her family cause her to fall?
Or maybe it was her pride that slapped her in the face,
Or maybe her negative views on the human race.
It seems trivial to ponder on these thoughts but the question still remains,
Why is the world the way it is? Why does everyone endure pain?
So many questions left unanswered in this young girl’s mind,
Unclear lessons that are portrayed through daily dramatic mimes.
She wonders if it is worth the time to find the answers to heal,
Or have the answers already been secretly revealed?
Friday, February 5, 2010
urban dictionary's definition for Jackie
elegant and curious, enjoys making people happy and is very optimistic, often relating to the late Jacqueline Onassis
Weather Wreaks Havoc for Rosenberg
http://www.fbherald.com/articles/2010/02/04/news/doc4b6b185223231647109997.txt
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Poem written for mom
Role of Death
I look into your eyes but now I see no life,
Your face was dull and silent as your body deals with the strife.
The accident took your words, your soul, and your heart,
Leaving your mere shell of a body all broken apart.
Starting at your neck all the way to your feet,
Battered and bruised from the powerful collision of defeat.
Tubes were protruding from all over your body along with several beeping monitor screens,
IV’S , medication, and a full staff of nursing teams.
Your eyes finally lost their twinkle after four days and I began to lose hope,
The doctors tried to make you as comfortable as possible while your body tried to cope.
Unfortunately, despite the efforts, I lost you that morning to the man in the sky,
I guess HE decided it was your time to die.
I hope you are happy mom and I pray you will remember me,
Because you were my life and meant the world to me.
I hope to see you again one fine day,
Until then I must continue with my own life today.
I look into your eyes but now I see no life,
Your face was dull and silent as your body deals with the strife.
The accident took your words, your soul, and your heart,
Leaving your mere shell of a body all broken apart.
Starting at your neck all the way to your feet,
Battered and bruised from the powerful collision of defeat.
Tubes were protruding from all over your body along with several beeping monitor screens,
IV’S , medication, and a full staff of nursing teams.
Your eyes finally lost their twinkle after four days and I began to lose hope,
The doctors tried to make you as comfortable as possible while your body tried to cope.
Unfortunately, despite the efforts, I lost you that morning to the man in the sky,
I guess HE decided it was your time to die.
I hope you are happy mom and I pray you will remember me,
Because you were my life and meant the world to me.
I hope to see you again one fine day,
Until then I must continue with my own life today.
Inspirational Quote for the day
“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
Monday, February 1, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Fort Bend County Narcotics
You guys should read this story!!
http://www.co.fort-bend.tx.us/news.asp?sitePage=5795&id=31841
http://www.co.fort-bend.tx.us/news.asp?sitePage=5795&id=31841
Thursday, January 28, 2010
This is wild!!!And only a few streets away...
http://www.khou.com/news/Police-chase-ends-in-fiery-crash-in-Richmonds-Pecan-Grove-subdivision-82820287.html
http://www.khou.com/news/Police-chase-ends-in-fiery-crash-in-Richmonds-Pecan-Grove-subdivision-82820287.html
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Quote of the day
Out of every fruition of success, no matter what, comes forth something to make a new effort necessary.
- Walt Whitman
- Walt Whitman
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Welcome to the music side of the new Lone Star Saloon. We have joined with
with Kyle Hutton. Kyle, who is a tremendous singer in his own right, performs acoustic shows every Sunday evening at 6:00 on 99.7 KVST as he hosts Real Life - Real Music. Kyle and his favorite artists like Hal Ketchum and Larry Gatlin perform their songs and tell the stories behind them, learn more about Kyle www.kylehutton.com
with Kyle Hutton. Kyle, who is a tremendous singer in his own right, performs acoustic shows every Sunday evening at 6:00 on 99.7 KVST as he hosts Real Life - Real Music. Kyle and his favorite artists like Hal Ketchum and Larry Gatlin perform their songs and tell the stories behind them, learn more about Kyle www.kylehutton.com
Thought for the day
“Give, and it shall be given to you. For whatever measure you deal out to others, it will be dealt to you in return.”
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Book Release
Hello to all my followers. I am so appreicative of your interest in my book entitled "Daddy's Throw Away Girl." I know the process has been long but the book should be ready for release very soon and is well worth the wait. I will send updated information as soon as I receive notice from American Book Publshing. Thanks again for your interest! Just be patiet and the book will ready in no time!Let the reading begin.....
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