Poem of the DAY

Lost


It’s 4 o’clock in the morning and I cannot sleep,
He is lying next to me not making a peep.
I think I am sober but I am not really sure,
I snorted a lot of cocaine tonight and it was really pure.
My thoughts are dazed and my emotions confused,
Torn between what I should and should not do.
I am completely broke and I have no job,
But I have managed to hide my feelings and silence my sobs.
I am not much of a crier until I hit my lowest of low,
And I either break down or cry or I’ll just go and buy some more blow.
I don’t really like being wired out of my mind,
But I can’t refuse when cocaine is the drug we find.
I want so much to escape this clouded place,
To try and live a life where I can stand to look at my own face.
I feel so alone and lost most of the time,
I want my life back, something I can happily call mine.
by: Jacqueline Carden (96')

Poem of the Day

Prayer for Help

Despite my rage, I am trying to maintain composure,
Even though my entire life is open for exposure.
Maybe it is time to face my fears,
No more hiding like I have done for the past eighteen years.
I used to be a fighter and always stood strong,
But after so much time my life’s purpose seemed wrong.
I can’t depend on my parent’s to love or support me,
Only one person can do that and I speak to him while on my knees.
I beg him for help to stop the raging anger within me and all the gloom,
To set my soul and mind at ease like a baby in its mother’s womb.
I know HE will help if I could just say the words and ask,
But the words need to be sincere and spoken from the heart and HE will complete the task.
by: Jacqueline Carden